10.16.2008

Reality Sounds Blissful



Can I just give a little Whoop Whoop for all my Stay At Home (SAH) mom friends! You girls are amazing. For the past seven weeks I have been home full time with my three M's. And last summer I was home with two of them for about 10 weeks. At the end of each maternity leave I have felt the same, which just puts my wandering mind at ease.

Prior to MaKenna's birth I was slightly jealous of SAH moms. I wanted so badly to do what they did. Like the indoor playground, story time hour at the library (in the morning), playgroups, morning walks, etc. My work schedule has always kept me away. I toyed with the idea of being a SAH mom myself, Katie just makes it look so easy and fun. Hubby thought I was crazy! I guess he knows me better than I think.

This last week was the last week of my maternity leave, my last maternity leave. Because I have the babies I have always dreamed of and since I am not normally a SAH mom I have attempted to make each day at home count. But making each day count becomes spendy. And when you somehow manage to not make a day count, boredom creeps in. There were only a few days they were bored. They were the ones when both girls were up in the night. And my body was lacking even an ounce of energy.

My brain wants to be back in the office, and Monday is coming. Over the course of the last week I have been called a few times by co-workers. Wondering this or that. Wanting to let me know that our program received a grant for over a hundred thousand dollars, that I wrote. Letting me know that they are as anxious for my return as I am. That feels good.

And what really makes going back so blissful is knowing it is only 24 hours per week. That I have superior child care and that a break is coming. A break. One more time because just saying it feels good: A BREAK!! Yes, I am calling work a break. Don't get me wrong, I'll miss these moments at home during my work hours. But hey, I'll happily survive. Especially if that is what makes me a better mom in the end.




*If you read prior to me changing SAT to the correct SAH--It's post baby brain....Whatever.