I'm getting off my chest that: I HAVE THREE KIDS. Wow. That's a lot. And they are all perfect and wonderful. Very well behaved monkeys that I never want to change or grow up, but that happens and is just part of life.
Life happened in other ways this week, too. Our good friends, Brandi & Chris, had a beautiful baby boy, Cameron Dean. Who was worth the loonngg wait. He's just a tiny baby, 6.o pounds at birth. Lots of blonde hair with a perfect tint of red.
As we walked out of the hospital from visiting them I was overwhelmed with feelings. Feelings of, are we really done? I've had all my kids, which was my plan to have them before I turned 30, but I'm only 27 and it was always so easy for me. I told E and he reminded me we'd need a sperm donor. Oh yes. That. It's ok because I really only want three and it's just these funny feelings I'm having. Don't mind those feelings, hubby!
Friday I had a doctors appointment because my body is having a hard time recovering from all these babies. I won't go into too many details, except that she made me take a pregnancy test. And when she asked me to take one I about started to cry. You think what? She wanted to rule it out and make sure it was ok to give me birth control pills to attempt to get me "normal" again.
As I sat in the room waiting for my result, I realized that I NEVER want to take another one of "these" tests, that I sooo don't want anymore children and things are entirely too happy the way they are. Please don't be positive I chanted to myself. Please no. Oh, please no. What kind of luck would that be?
My text mid-wait for results, gave E the perfect nudge to go and have those sperm checked on! I gave him a little hint about the result I was waiting for and he was sweating bullets when I walked in the door. But since there were no tears streaming down my face, he knew we were in the clear. It was NEGATIVE. And the doc thinks I'll be "normal" again soon. This poor body of mine just needs time. And lots of baby snuggles and love and heck, I'll be just fine, feelings and all.
